4x4 Ministry

Today there is news of a great tragedy. A friend as lost his daughter at the age of 30. Something like this happens everyday, just to different people. But sometimes, when its someone you know, it hurts. For me it reminds me of my weakness of assuming that time is on my side. This world is really getting worse and as leader I am being made aware of this every day and I believe God is challenging me to step up to the plate. There is so much pain in my family. Even more with my friends. But I forget and overlook just how much He has blessed me and my family with peace and safety. I know that tragedy is not punishment or selective to hit based on merit but it is only held back by the mercy of God. I see today that my slackness and slothful spirituality is going to cause others to suffer. Being honest, I believe that I am afraid to truly walk in what God is calling me to do. And maybe I being to generous to myself by saying that because to me it is obvious that many times I am just plain old lazy. When the weather gets really bad here in Michigan most times I drive the GMC around town. Its big and bulky and handles well in the snow. Sometimes when I didn't shovel the driveway I would often get stuck trying to get out. The funny thing is, is that the GMC has 4 wheel drive. I hesitated to use it because it takes a lot of gas and I think its harmful to the car if it over used. But that's what it's made for. It's make to drive in 4 wheel drive. I see that same thing in my spiritual life. I rather get stuck than turn on 4 wheel drive. Even though its going to wear me down and use alot of energy., I hesitate to do what it takes to seek the Lord and serve my family as a priest. A true leader is a leader in his or her home and private life. The question is, I'm I ready for 4x4 ministry? If I believe that I can do it for the total stranger, why can't I do it for my family?